Idiotic Synchronicity [08.04.08]

Song Playing: Coldplay - "X&Y"
"You and me are floating on a tidal wave together; you and me are drifting into outer space..."

Taking a break from the sightless monotony that is illness. I'm tired of laying in bed, staring at Adam Brody and Kristin Stewart's chemistry in the film "In The Land Of Women". I'm tired of sipping green tea from my golden yellow mug and feeling completely and utterly hopeless about my return to health. I'm tired.

Even more the reason why I should be in bed, right?

I've watched too much television on a Monday:
*Food Network (given)
*"Never Been Kissed"
*"Serendipity"
*"In The Land Of Women"

I can't breathe properly, but at least I can speak.
Maybe it's due to watching hot men on the tube.

I had a point to hop into this itchy, flat reclining computer seat and start typing into a new post.
But it's escaped me.

Maybe I'm overthinking the fact that, soon, something miraculous may happen in this place called home. So many emotions run through me while I see that word. Home...HOME...

Maybe I've lost a sense of where my real home is.
Because constant yelling, bickering, slamming doors, secretive whispers and awkward hugs don't feel like home.
It's probably just me.

My sunburn turned into a tan, but it still burns.
I know, random.

It's been about 12 hours. And already my heart feels like crying.
I'm awestruck at how quickly I jumped into this.
Maybe...maybe...

Perhaps, it is coming true. And I hope you feel it too.

I'm going to go shower...might as well do something productive in the next 5 hours.
Besides the obvious.

I should study. As of today, I have a 74% in Math 080.
I need to haul ass and get help. I don't understand this.
3 final tests next week. My last week.
I can't let myself down.

Yeah, that's it. My throat is itchy. Back to green tea and romance movies. Because that's all I can wish for.

Je t'aime. <3